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Contrasting Depressions

Aug. 13th, 2008 | 04:18 am

These are two poems that feel depression in their own ways. I am obviously of the Larkin school of sadness. I re-read the Neruda a few weeks ago, and was stricken by its beauty, but also how it wasn't mine.

Spent tonight reading all of sour Phil's poetry again. On the inside, I am perhaps a lonely, embittered misogynist who knows that smiles are for the young, and that I was never young.

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Aug. 9th, 2008 | 05:44 pm

Because you should buy them from me.  Remember when I was gonna send all you guys stuff?  I couldn't afford it!  But if you buy things, I WILL SEND YOU TONS OF THINGS WITH WHATEVER YOU BOUGHT.  hahahha.

Plus sized stuff posted on Fatshionista, click here to see them.

Straight sized stuff posted on WIWT_2, click here to see them.

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jeez o' pete

Jul. 15th, 2008 | 01:41 am


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Jun. 19th, 2008 | 02:27 pm

I've been posting on a new blog at , which I suppose is meant to be more topical, yet unfortunately just as indulgent, as this thing is.

Anybody with a paid account care to create a syndicated livejournal feed for it?

Here is the syndicated feed that you can add to your friends list.  Thanks, ladeezzz!!

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out of truth, not pain.

Jun. 3rd, 2008 | 08:22 pm

Today, rereading some Bly.  Trying to remember being kind, trying to always embody forgiveness and pleasure and compassion and everything that feels good in the world.  I get so stuck sometimes, completely trapped in my ego, I forget who I am (no/every one) and what I love (all).  It always happens when I stop writing.

The Greek Ships, Robert Bly

When the water holes go, and the fish flop about
In the mud, they can moisten each other faintly,
But it's best if they lose themselves in the river.

You know how many Greek ships went down
With their cargoes of wine.  If we can't get
To port, perhaps it's best to head for the bottom.

I've heard that the mourning dove never says
What she means.  Those of us who make up poems
Have agreed not to say what the pain is.

Eliot wrote his poems for years standing under
A bare light-bulb.  He knew he was a murderer,
And he accepted his punishment at birth.

The sitar player is searching: now in the back yard,
Now in the old dishes left behind on the table,
Now for the suffering on the underside of a leaf.

Go ahead, throw your good name into the water.
All those who have ruined their lives for love
Are calling to us from a hundred sunken ships.

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world wide crazy

May. 18th, 2008 | 01:54 pm

The most recent comment on the photograph of my body I took about a year ago says this:

dietmtndw says:

you could look like this


Legit mentally ill. Also, I'll have an ant body if I ever "edit a pretty" in real life. Hahahahahhahaha, holy shit.

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Apr. 28th, 2008 | 12:07 pm

tagged by [info]catpowerurfree

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Blonde on Blonde - Nada Surf
2. I Can't Go For That - Hall & Oates
3. She Is Loaded - Giles, Giles, & Fripp
4. 20th Century Man - the Kinks
5. This Will Be Our Year - the Zombies
6. If You Need Me - Wilson Pickett
7. Hanna & Gabi - the Lemonheads

do it if you want!

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Apr. 24th, 2008 | 10:28 am

I was rejected from Brown.  Just got the letter.

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yes, seriously

Apr. 10th, 2008 | 01:31 pm



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it's not done anymore

Apr. 9th, 2008 | 10:00 am

Do you remember how special hidden tracks used to be on records?

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